January 19, 1897
Mourning Daughter Susy, Clemens Describes His Family as Adrift, Indifferent and Derelict and Says They Cannot Bear to Return to Their Hartford Home
Reeling from the sudden death of his precious daughter Susy just four months before, Clemens writes that his family is as if at sea, uncharted, derelict and indifferent; and explains, in this connection, how they cannot bear to go back to their Hartford home, for it was there that Susy lived and died.
No member of my family has been well since our bereavement; but they keep upon their feet, & that is something… We think of seeking a place in the country in May, but we may go back to the Continent. We are restless and unsettled. We had a charted course: we have none now. We are derelicts - & derelicts are indifferent to what may happen. I wish we could be at home… but we cannot look upon that house yet. Eighteen years of our daughter's life were spent in it; & by blessed fortune she was visiting in the town when she was taken ill, & so was privileged to die under the roof that had sheltered her youth, with none but familiar things before her fading eyes, & with the same servants to minister to her that had served her as a child. The house is hallowed, now, but we could not bear to see it yet.
Suzy’s tragic death became the crucial event of the last fourteen years of Clemens’ life. The best of it was over.
Autograph Letter Signed (“S.L. Clemens”), 3 pages, octavo, on black-bordered mourning stationery, 23 Tedworth Square, Chelsea, [London, England], January 19, 1897. To Francis H. Skrine.